| Come to Think of It, This List Could Go On Forever... |
[Jul. 25th, 2008|04:47 pm] |
| [ | I feel: |
| |  congested | ] |
| [ | I hear: |
| | Mute Math | ] |
Things I Wish I Did Better:
- call people back
- write people back
- make decisions quickly
- find the motivation/time to exercise (and/or eat healthier foods)
- approach people
- make plans
- sing (not that I have much control over that)
- dance
- stick to things I start (for example: learning guitar & piano, learning to crochet & knit, other things I can't think of currently)
- pray
- control my temper
- express myself
- use time more efficiently
- keep my room neater
- and more that I will think of later |
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[Jul. 12th, 2008|08:37 pm] |
| [ | I feel: |
| |  recumbent | ] |
Well. No more bending over backwards for people who can't be bothered doing anything for me.
Also I finally started watching The Office and I love it! :)
Is it sad that I'd rather hang out with kids who are like 10+ years younger than me than adults?
Oh well. Then I guess I'm sad. |
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| there's a clash of information between my ears |
[Jul. 6th, 2008|01:54 am] |
| [ | I feel: |
| |  discontent | ] |
| [ | I hear: |
| | Maxeen | ] |
When I was in fifth grade, I planned to have a big sleepover party with all my friends. I sent out invitations and was really excited about it -- especially because I had cool toys and a cool house (in my humble opinion, ha). But out of the 12 or so girls I invited, only about 5 came. It was a major disappointment.
Now it's about 12 years later, and I haven't tried for any more parties in that time because I didn't want to experience that disappointment again. But since I've graduated and am planning to leave for Mexico (well, Texas first) at the end of this month, my parents are planning a combination graduation/farewell party for me. They invited a lot of their friends and of course I am supposed to invite mine. But now that I've started inviting, it's like fifth grade all over again, because most of my invitees can't come. Ugh.
Also, I really wish that I could breathe through my nose without needing a tissue. I hate allergies!
I should update this more often. |
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[May. 1st, 2008|11:05 pm] |
| [ | I feel: |
| |  amused | ] |
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| | Seinfeld is on TV. Oh wait, now it's something else. | ] |
I wonder how different life would have been if I'd had myspace & facebook when I was in high school.
AIM was crazy enough for me, what with all the buddy info & away message stalking that was done, ha. |
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| I'll take you on |
[Apr. 2nd, 2008|09:48 pm] |
| [ | I feel: |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | I hear: |
| | Halifax | ] |
Today I am thankful for:
the undo button.
[If only real life had one.] |
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| Has the race gone underwater? |
[Mar. 31st, 2008|09:34 pm] |
| [ | I feel: |
| |  ugh | ] |
| [ | I hear: |
| | Mute Math | ] |
When I teach and I write on the board, I'm always paranoid that I've gotten white chalkdust handprints all over my black pants, or that I've got chalk smears across my butt. |
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| up all night long, and there's something very wrong... |
[Mar. 12th, 2008|12:45 am] |
| [ | I feel: |
| |  exhausted | ] |
| [ | I hear: |
| | Blink 182 | ] |
Student teaching is fun, but a lot of work and kind of overwhelming. Oh, and frustrating at times.
Seriously, who knew teachers worked so much outside of school? And I haven't even taken on a full school day yet.
Sleep deprivation is fun!! |
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| But counterfeit smiles can only do so much. |
[Mar. 5th, 2008|11:10 pm] |
| [ | I feel: |
| |  giddy | ] |
| [ | I hear: |
| | The Elation | ] |
The pros might be starting to outweigh the cons, I think.
Teaching high schoolers is weird. I still feel [and look] like a high schooler, and now I have to be an authoritative figure. Strange. I'm not very good at being authoritative, but I hope I improve as time goes on. Yelling at kids is weird.
I am in a ridiculously giddy mood right now. I hate when this happens right before bed when I still have tons of stuff to do and no concentration. |
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| Is it stormy inside of your veins? |
[Feb. 12th, 2008|12:00 am] |
| [ | I feel: |
| |  indifferent | ] |
| [ | I hear: |
| | Cursive | ] |
You know what irks me?
When people ask me, "What's new?"
I never know how to answer. Um, life is going on. Nothing has changed since the last time I talked to you a couple days ago.
Am I supposed to be living some sort of fast-paced ever-changing life where things are constantly new?
Sorry, but I'm a creature of habit who is intimidated by change.
"What's up?" on AIM also gets me, too.
Obviously what is up is I am sitting on my lazy ass staring at the computer screen.
Damned smalltalk. |
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| These nights played on my carousel; never-ending circles... |
[Feb. 8th, 2008|03:17 am] |
| [ | I feel: |
| |  nervous | ] |
| [ | I hear: |
| | Home Grown | ] |
So.
I'm generally uncomfortable speaking in front of people.
I'm still intimidated by high schoolers and the 'popular kids.'
I'm not very creative.
I need to work on my Spanish skills.
Um...why am I striving to become a high school Spanish teacher again? |
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[Jan. 9th, 2008|08:42 pm] |
Maybe everything always looks better in retrospect.
Perhaps hindsight isn't only 20/20 but also rose-colored.
Is that the right phrase? Rose-colored? |
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| That reminds me. |
[Jan. 4th, 2008|06:39 pm] |
| [ | I feel: |
| |  thoughtful | ] |
Since the new year has just begun, it's time to reflect on 2007, even if I barely wrote in here.
The Good:
- A ten week trip to Mexico...!
- Dean's List after the fall semester.
- The Ritter show in Wilkes-Barre. Hah.
- A vacation to North Carolina.
- Passing the Praxis II [I'm smarter than I thought! Or just a better guesser]
- Getting a keyboard.
- Vacation to North Carolina!
The Bad:
- Practically everyone graduated but me.
- Too much work last semester.
- Ming died.
- No one to hang out with.
- Losing touch with people.
That's about all I can think of. |
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| You actually can't die of boredom. I've tried it. |
[Jan. 4th, 2008|06:23 pm] |
| [ | I feel: |
| |  bored | ] |
And silly surveys don't cure boredom...but they do help for a couple minutes.
1. Who was the last person to call you baby & meant it?
Hell if I know. No one calls me baby.
2. Would you dare to skydive?
Yeah. Though I'd probably be pretty scared.
3. If you got the chance to kiss the last person you kissed, would you?
Hah...probably.
4. Has someone ever sung a song to you?
Yeah.
5. Do you like to dance?
Sometimes.
6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness would you survive?
Depends on the wilderness.
18. If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you would do?
Well first I'd probably scream. It just seems like a natural reaction. Maybe even a curse or two.
19. Who did you sleep with last night?
It was just me.
20. Who do you text the most?
These days, I don't do a whole lot of texting.
21. Where would you rather be right now?
Home. Or somewhere warmer....like Mexico.
22. What color are your eyes?
Green.
23.how tall are you?
5'0
26. Do you secretly like someone?
Yes-ish.
27. Have you lost any friends recently?
Well, I've lost touch with some.
28. Who was the last person you said you loved on the phone?
I probably said it to my mom today.
32. Do you like mustard?
On certain things at certain times.
33. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
Depends.
34. Do you look like your mom or dad?
Like my mom.
35. What time is it right now?
6:29pm.
36. Can you do splits?
Nope.
37. What movie do you want to see right now?
"Enchanted" and "The Golden Compass"
39. What did you do for New Year's Eve?
Hated being sick. Drove around a little.
41. Have you ever been in a fist fight?
Nope.
42. Was your mom a cheerleader?
Nope.
43. Who do you love?
Lovable people. Oh snap.
44. Is someone jealous of you?
Probably poor kids in 3rd world countries.
Pft I don't know.
45. What's the last letter of your middle name?
H.
47. How many hours of sleep do you get a night?
I try for around 8. Sometimes more, sometimes less.
48. Do you like care bears?
Not especially.
50. Do you know how to play poker?
Vague ideas.
51. Do you wear your seatbelt.?
Always.
52. What do you wear to sleep?
Pajama pants, old t-shirt, and lately socks because my feet get cold.
53. Anything big ever happen in your town?
Every July, the Greeley Fire Department holds a chicken barbecue.
54. Is your hair straight or curly?
A little bit wavy.
55. Is your tongue pierced?
Nope.
56. Do you like liver and onions?
Never had it, and probably never will. Ick.
57. Are you the type of person who would do anything for your BF/GF?
Well it depends. I'd do a lot...but it depends on the person, and our relationship, and other factors.
58. Do you like funny or serious people better?
People who are a good mix of seriousness & funniness.
59. Got any brothers/sisters?
An older sister.
60. Who is on your mind right now?
No one specifically.
61. Any plans for tonight?
I'm probably going to get pizza later. Sit in my room some more - maybe read or something. Waste time. The likes.
63. Do you hate chocolate?
Nope.
64. What do you and your parents fight about the most?
These days we don't really fight so much. Every once in a while something random will come up, though.
66. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy?
No...though lately I think it'd be nice.
68. Does someone like you right now?
Doubt it.
69. What is your favorite time of day?
Evening.
70. Why did your last relationship fail?
Things stopped working out. |
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[Dec. 13th, 2007|04:12 pm] |
| [ | I feel: |
| |  originally annoyed | ] |
Today's discovery: Snow days can be bad. And annoying.
Added later:
Four and a half years at this silly school and I finally went sledding down the hill behind GLM on a cafeteria tray. And it worked. And was tons of fun. A silver lining on this cloud of a day. Or something. |
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| Hooray Comforting Lists! |
[Dec. 11th, 2007|11:52 am] |
Cool Things about Being Single:
- No worries as to whether the boyfriend will be jealous when I'm talking to other boys.
- No worries about whether he is 'getting friendly' with other girls.
- I don't have think/shop forever trying to decide what to get him.
- I don't have to worry about how much money I should be spending on the gift. And I don't have to spend money on the gift...so that means more money in my pocket.
- I have more time to myself to do things like study or relax. |
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[Dec. 4th, 2007|12:22 am] |
| [ | I feel: |
| |  apathetic | ] |
| [ | I hear: |
| | Christmas Music | ] |
I have come to the conclusion that most people only care about themselves and are also only interested in themselves.
I used to care about other people, but that didn't work out.
I think now I'm going to only care about myself, too.
Damn selfish people. |
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| And I hate to think of all that I might miss. |
[Mar. 29th, 2007|10:25 pm] |
| [ | I feel: |
| |  irritated | ] |
| [ | I hear: |
| | Ritter | ] |
Today I saw a guy with no arms play the guitar with his feet. And he was good (from what I heard of the song I heard him play).
And I thought about how I can't even play the guitar with my hands.
Or the piano.
I need to get on that. |
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| see myself reflected in broken glass |
[Mar. 24th, 2007|06:32 pm] |
| [ | I feel: |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | I hear: |
| | Thursday | ] |
Well, since my one shoe started to look like this
I decided it was time to finally buy a new pair of shoes.
Unfortunately, I am terrible at shopping and I don't like much of anything. Well, it's not that I don't like stuff, just that not much can meet the high standards I have.
I'm looking for something that looks good and will go with a lot of outfits. I didn't want white shoes because they get too dirty too fast (plus I already have a decent pair of white shoes). And there's not too many black shoes.
I didn't want real skater shoes because I think they look funny on me. Plus I don't skate.
I also want the shoes to be comfortable. Therefore, no Converses (though they had some cute pairs) because they have no arch support, and I notice that when I wear my Vans, which are a similar shape, the arches of my feet hurt after a while. So I took that into consideration.
With standards in mind, I went to the malls today and yesterday to find myself a new pair of shoes to replace the ripped ones.
Because I am an indecisive person, I bought two pairs:
A pair of Pumas, very similar style/shape to the Adidas ones. I do like them, but I've never worn Pumas before so I don't know how good the quality is, etc.
The other pair:
These were about $10 more than the Pumas, and I do like them, and since they're Adidas they'll probably hold up fairly well.
But neither of the shoes...I don't know. I'm not 100% sure I really like either of them (or which I like more).
Then again, when I bought the original Adidas shoes, at first I didn't know if I really did like them, either. I'm so indecisive.
So that's my big debacle now...I thought maybe writing about it would help me decide, but alas, I still am not sure.
I've got 45 days to make the decision though. |
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| I'm gonna be perfect from now on. I'm gonna be perfect starting now. |
[Mar. 22nd, 2007|12:51 am] |
| [ | I feel: |
| |  fjkghjgkhjkdfjhg | ] |
| [ | I hear: |
| | Built to Spill | ] |
Today's reflection: All the people that you spend only a short period of time with but they affect your life greatly...and then you never have contact with them again. Hmm.
(I wrote that a couple days ago actually...I don't post half of what I write here.)
I think I'm going to move to California. I have homeless friends in the Sacramento area now; they'll show me how to survive on the streets. It'd work out. All I need is money for airfare and I'll be set.
I'm seriously rethinking my near future plans. And maybe some of my far future plans.
Only 58 days until this semester's over! |
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| Where were they going without ever knowing the way? |
[Mar. 6th, 2007|02:12 pm] |
| [ | I feel: |
| | stressed | ] |
| [ | I hear: |
| | Fastball | ] |
Sometimes I feel like I'm not living my life, but rather just trying to get by.
Constantly I'm just like, "Laura, just get through this and everything will be fine," but then more stuff comes up and I get overwhelmed and I wonder when and if everything will be fine. It's always one thing after another (or at the same time).
All I know is that for all the work and stuff I'm doing, after I graduate and get settled my life had better be friggin easy street.
Speaking of graduating...will I even graduate in spring of 2008 now?
Once I saw a shirt that said "College: the best 7 years of my life." It's a little too close to home now.
I love how you can always tell how I'm doing by the condition of my room.
Today it's in total disarray.
Why do I load so much up on my plate when all I really want to do is lounge around and do nothing? I wouldn't mind being a hobo for the rest of my life, really. Sometimes I wonder if college is just a waste of time/money/energy/stress.
The Forecast's "And We All Return to Our Roots" has been stuck in my head a lot lately.
All I want, all I want is a little place of my own where I can rest my head. |
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